Fresh Ponderings

Oh friends! The ice is finally melting and I feel like I'm slowly coming up out of my two week slump (if you want to know what's been going on ask me, it's too boring for the blog). Anyways I'm reading this really interesting book called Total Truth by:Nancy R. Pearcy. The book is basically about Christian worldview, which is a topic that's really rocking my mind right now. Every semester my job requires me to do some kind of personal development so I'm reading this book and a couple of others and I'm going to write a paper on an aspect of worldview. I'm planning on writing my paper on the indispensability of gospel worldview as the fuel for world redemption through every vocation. If you have an opinion or can think of anything that might help me, let me know.

Here is a little sample of what I've been thinking about:
As a student I had the false perception that ministry jobs were somehow more spiritual than secular jobs. I thought that if I went into full-time ministry I’d somehow have a better shot at following Christ in the long run, and I guess I just thought that full-time ministry is what really committed Christians who walk with God do. And I was right, but I failed to realize that every Christian who truly has the mind of Christ is engaged in full-time ministry everyday. God has called every believer to continue His work of redeeming every area of life for His glory.
Our culture has somehow sold Christians the lie that if we are free to have bible studies, prayer meetings, and evangelistic outreaches that’s enough. Christian scientists, engineers, teachers, artists, and surgeons have been tricked into leaving their faith at the door as they enter into their 8 hour work day, accepting popular thought as neutral/ objective truth instead of using what they know and believe about God as the framework for their particular jobs. As a result Christian students think that the only way they can express their faith through their work is to be a preacher, campus minister, or a missionary. The church has been robbed of it’s arms and legs and subsequently lost its relevance in today’s culture, while churches and para-church ministries have unknowingly adopted cultural practices.

I HATE FLIRTING

Sometimes I hate being a girl. What other species of human being overanalyzes just about every normal social interaction that takes place in their lives.Yes, Yes there is this guy. Doesn't it always start that way, we flirt alot and I hate it. But secretly I like it ( I'm a glutton for punishment). Flirting sucks, I like things that are black and white and flirting is definitely grey. Some people flirt with only those that they like, and other people spill over with flirtacious energy and splash every member of the opposite sex with two legs. Either way, when someone flirts with you, you never know if there is any real interest there. I don't know how it is for guys but for girls, if the guy is a growing Christian, moderately attractive, and shows continued flirtacious attention we usually decide that he might just be an ideal dating partner. This is all very dangerous because as I'm learning slowly and painfully, flirting communicates absolutely nothing besides the fact that both parties have raging hormones. While the skilled flirter thinks that flirting will calm that rage, in fact flexing that flirtacious muscle only leaves people frustrated. There is this subtle deception, this mask we're dancing behind. You say all these flattering things behind the guise of joking and you can't help but wonder if there isn't just a little truth behind all that laughter. If you want to tell me that you want to date me, tell me. If that's the last thing you'd want to do, don't joke about it. If you're not sure but it might be a possibility in the future, again say nothing until you know. I want to marry a man who realizes the power of his careless words and actions and respects me enough to put himself on the line and tell me the truth about the way he feels. Lord, help me to be that kind of woman. It's so much easier to trade cheap silly attention for waiting faithfully and patiently for the Lord to bring along the right man at the right time.

Trapped

That's just what kind of day I'm having. I feel like lounging all night and staying home but I can't. I gotta go out and work. I think the hours are the hardest thing for me. All my relaxing time gets split up so I don't ever really feel rested. This morning I met with someone at 8am then came home, 12pm then came home, 3pm and then came home and I'm having dinner with one of the girls at 5pm and I'm going stay out till prolly 11pm. Lord help me! I feel like I still don't exactly know what I'm doing or what I'm even supposed to do and I sorta wanna cry and put on my pj pants but that ain't in the cards for me tonight(at least not till later). LORD CHANGE MY HEART!