Alien and Stranger

I'm a traveling gypsy. I leave next week for Egypt, when I get back I'll pack up all my belongings, move them out of the Dirty White House and into storage, then head down to Destin, Florida for the summer. Admittedly I'm a bit uneasy, because we haven't secured a place to live for the fall yet but the Lord will provide.
Today was graduation here at UM. Two of my roomates (Erin & Alisa) graduated, so I went to see them walk and I really enjoyed it. Mandii, Camilla, Carl, Janell, and Marcus graduated too so I'm glad that I went. Its been 3 years since I graduated from college. That is insane to me! I remember that right out of college feeling, the excitement and uncertainty, the lack of clear direction, the grasping for something concrete- a job, a place to live- just some kind of security. I'm not so sure I've left that place. I'm still out here in uncharted territory, the only difference is that I've made my peace with not knowing, and taking things a day at a time. Its crazy just yesterday I was having breakfast with my roomates- laughing and playing around. Tonight, two of them are gone and the whole dynamic in our house has changed literally overnight. Life is change.
Just about every minute of the day there's a deep desire in my heart to love and be loved. I think that's why I go in and out of periods of struggling with singleness. I've been seeing lately that in lots of circumstances I reject love in my life if its not in the form I want to receive it. But tonight it was just so good- we had a big graduation party at the house and I just felt the love coming off of everybody. And I started thinking about that line from some old Dave Matthews Band song, "What I want is what I've not got but what I need is all around me." My life is so full if I have eyes to see it. Right now there is nothing stable to rest my feet on but Jesus Christ, and I can't help thinking that right now that's exactly how He wants it to be.